My Feelings...

Hi again... i've gt a qn.... can i trust anyone with my feelings? i wonder... friends should be there when you need them and girls should know how one another feels... but i dun get that feeling... why? i was left alone with xinni and rajesh... but the rest was like didnt even notice that we weren't even thr... they left without us and ... nevermind... forget it... i'll treat it as it never happened...

next today was the mini-concert or the pre-syf concert... my parents came!!!

next, was the last exchange at pingyi sec... i wanted to post about it but was too tired... thn i save wad i wrote thn the next day, i wrote a list of things but, it didnt post and showed me that something cannot post thn go back to whr i save the day before... so forget it..

next, today coming back home from lunch, i almost slept in bus again!!! ystdy i really did slept, and today again?!?! i must be really tired... have to wake up and sleep early!!!

next, i really want to meet him in the exchange again.... i feel tat these days i really want to at least see him in exchange and at least say a word hi... haiz... troubles troubles... but today was a romantic day... we were given roses to our parents... in my section, only my parents came... awww so sweet...

So,So,So, tired...

Zzzz... Zzzz... Zzzz... this is what happens when i came back from the rehersal at the SCH, i was super damn tired... till i fell asleep in the bus... until still so tired... Zzzz...Zzzz...Zzzz... OMG!!! i want to go SWENSENS for dessert... but too tired to go, futhermore, tmr still got exchange at pingyi sec sch... and yah... i made my mind to say 'hi' to him!!! OMG!!! so scared sia... dunno what to say... haiz... my sis found my blog and now, at home going around "helping" me promote my blog... thankx huh sis... tmr still got SS lesson... Zzzz... luckily i not taking geography... if not have to stay for another 1hr... Zzzz... Sleepy... Long week, Long hours, Long Day... Off to my work... gonna stay at most till 9.30pm thn going sleep!!! too tired to continue... nitez for now... Zzzz... Zzzz... Zzzz...

Many many things....

hello... back again... many many things to say... gonna list them... check it out below... hope you dont mind if i go out of point in some things...

1) firstly, i miss SS501 as a group!!! its not tat i dun like their solo activities, but i prefer them as a group as they are more charismatic in a group... all blame those entertainment that they went to for not accepting them as a group... i want their comeback as 5 together as 1... i miss them... i want to see them perform together on stage... i want, i want, i want.... #SS501

2) secondly, yesterday i went to desaru... had a fun time there with my mum's worker's family... we went to the waterfalls... and played there.... omg the water there may be natural water, but its cold!!! very very cold... but still i had fun... aft that we planned to go to the ostrich farm, but dunno wad reason thn never go... sad case... nvm but aft we visited the hotel at desaru, we went for dinner!!! i love the dinner... there was lobster, prawns(my favourite!!),ostrich meat... all so yummy!!! love it... thn we made our way home... T.T i miss there....

3) thirdly, guy problem!!!! i have been thinking whether i should talk to him anot on the next exchange and i even i ask god for answer... he said to take the first irreversible step and i have decided to talk to him, but now another problem i dunno wad to talk about except saying 'hi'... i want to say more but i m not those who can talk very well... help help... can i ask someone for help? or just say 'hi' and let the fate decide?i hope fate can decide a good fate for me... 8( ... i wanna cry... stuck in this situation... T.T

4) fortly, i got my results for CA1, and guess wad? i got 3 A1,2 B3, 1 C6 and 1 D7... guess the D7 is for wad subject? ART!!! hahax.. nvm... gtg... post more next time...

Japan... + others...

OMG!!! Japan was hit by an earthquake... hope its well... start trending on twitter now~#prayforjapan !!! poor thing...
OMG!!! coming april, is our syf... 12 april to be exact... it oso in the morning... n guess who is the first for that day? North Vista... O.o... i really want to talk to him!!! oh god ... pls help... 16 mar maybe the last time we may meet each other... coz it the exchange... maybe on that day, if he doesn't come and talk to me, i should do the talking? i wonder... but not sure to talk about wad... help help... i really want to know him better... i wan to be close frens... and not strangers that dont know each other... hahax... maybe he will know my name... coz its printed on my new band tee... it has my name on it... maybe he will talk to me?... i hope so... no, is i wish so... no, is he will talk to me... but the exchange is at pingyi sec... T.T maybe the day before it? the day whr i go to the SCH for rehersal? maybe he will be there? i want him to be there... i wanna open my mouth and talk to him... like wad the book that faz borrowed me... i wanna be that girl... T.T i wish i could... T.T nvm holidays are here, wif tons of hmwks so cyah... gonna do hmwk...

XxXxXx

Hello once again... recently, i've been thinking... maybe i should talk to him? on the outside, i show everyone that i was over him, but recently, i feel like having him as a friend... i thought about it and maybe the reason that fazirah said that he was looking at me on the 13 dec concert last year,, maybe it was because i was very skinny, and he has never saw someone as thin as me playing first trombone... i was full of bones and skin wrapping it... maybe i was too skinny for him to believe...but anyways, i feel like going up to him and say hello, but not sure what to continue... oh my god... it's a guy problem... i have mixed feelings, one side wants me to go say hello to him and the other side is to forget him... oh god... i hate this kind of thought... anyways, maybe the next exchange at pinyi sec, we will meet? lolx... i keep giving myself hope but still crash down... i feel like giving up!!! he is a bastard for giving me this kind of feeling... should i go say hello? pls,pls help me... i know i should focus on my studies and not think of these, but i want someone to rely on... pls... with these thoughts... i'm off for now... cyah...

260211 concert @Siglap CC

today's concert was fun... wee took the train at 1.30pm, thn reached bedok at 2.40pm-2.50pm... thn we were late... we werre told that the whole band was waiting for us... it was so sweet... awww... we hurried and took the taxi there... wow... the band played many songs and it was awesome... they played flight of the piasa and tangle wood too... OMG... Nice... after tat, we went for dinner at the nearest kfc... i ate till full and didn't finish the whole meal... left with the cheese fries... we actually wanted to go east coast park and play truth or dare but it was late, so went played on the bus... it was crazy, i got the 'dare' twice... horrible... but fun... i went hm aft tat...shit... when it was my stop, i did not press the bell and the bus juz went off my stop... i had to drop off at the next stop and walk home... it was dark, late night... lolx... 1 person walking... well, after tat, and nw i'm home... tmr chi and a.maths test... lolx... like crazy... hahax... i heard the recording for ystdy's exchange performance... it was ok, but there's a big room for improvement... hope to play better thn nvsb in the next exchange... mr choy said tat their playing was better thn ours in the set piece... my aim next is to play better than them in the next exchange... mr choy siad that we do not have enough exchange and practice... whereas, nvsb has more exchange thn us and have 3 practice per week with the conductor... when ours is 3 pactice per week but 2 with conductor and 1 without... such a pity... our t.i.c should be more open and be happy tat some of us are willing to take up more practice and exchange to play better... haiz... gambatte... forgotten about him(so random)... fighting... jiayou... :D ^^

1102025 Exchange

Hello again... today's exchange at north vista was only ok... there was pingyi sec, bedok town sec, jun yuan sec, north vista sec and wdl sec... we were playing our choice piece and set piece... overall, pingyi sec's military band was the best... the effect was the most powerful... wad to say? they are really ping yi...hahax... finally over the 'he' way way over... forget him... tmr's concert is at siglap community centre... so far, so long... luckily tmr nite no need to collect $$, sleepy zzz... today's trombone's attendance was 3/4, coz 2nd trombone has to go for a.maths tution... making it so weird for me to hold high notes!!! i cannot survive without my section... T.T... i wan new class tee(so random)... lolx... kk... enough... gtg wash up and rest... tonite collecting $$... see you tomorrow at the concert...